MindOS in My Life Again

I would consider myself a student of Dr. Paul for the past two years however I had an interesting ride. I remember following Dr. Paul's model and seeing it as very complete, sound, and structured. For a scientific guy like myself, it was perfect.

I would think about it nearly every day, "Do Courage" and I would catch myself avoiding things and going into anxiety loops (if you know Dr. Paul's Model, you'll know that avoidance and anxiety loops are things to avoid and heal). Pretty much all my emotional pathways were laid out in an elegant system. Sort of like how NASA only used Newton's Basic Theory of Gravity to put a man on the moon (not so much Einstein's complex theory). From a simple idea to man's greatest of steps.

However, one definite issue I had which constantly impeded me was my old lame limiting beliefs. I had a lot of them, especially back then. Dr. Paul has a lot of stuff on limiting beliefs, how they can cause a person to go into anxiety loops or aggression loops, but I did sort of step outside Dr. Paul's model and into more the more spiritual whelm.

I actually talked to Dr. Paul on email quite a bit, he responded to my emails almost instantly, it was really awesome. I specifically asked him about healing limiting beliefs and (I forget the exact words) he recommended EMDR? An eye technique to fix beliefs. Unfortunately, I wasn't quite sure where to go with that and I sort of drifted into Chakra mediation and other more new-age systems. Someone recommended Steph's chakra program and I gave it a listen, it was quite intriguing at that time, new and interesting.

For a long while, I looked to Eastern style of personal development for the answer to all my inner issues, I even mediated with a real Guru from India for awhile. Guys like Steph sort of advertise that he solves all inner issues and that "all game is inner game" which I feel is true if one is already born with great social skills, or knows how to communicate very well already. Steph is an amazing communicator and probably was since a child. I stuck with Steph for awhile but then found Authentic Man Program. AMP is a more grounded, more refined personal development system that really teaches guys how to develop great presence, appreciation for life, and integrity with women and dating all from an Eastern standpoint. AMP teaches that inner game helps build outer game, which in turn feeds inner game. So outer game can, in fact, build your inner game…

But, at the end the day, while my beliefs were getting stronger and my skin was thickening, my ability to handle real time stress, real time anxiety, was turning rather passive. True, anxiety and anger wasn't affecting me as much, I was more grounded, but when they did come into my life, I would feel helpless. I would feel ashamed of my anger and angry at my anxiety, to an extent. Bad loop huh?

MindOS to the rescue, baby! LATE. (Okay I am jumping ahead now…)

Another aspect to this spiritual journey I went on is that I really denied my analytical, logical side. So imagine that for a moment, you are an engineer or scientist and force yourself to not analyze situations. You only allow yourself to be right-brained. Sure it will help you step outside the box, but at the end of the day, you are a left-brained scientist. It's like that story about the lizard and the toad where the toad asked the lizard not to eat it, the lizard said "okay" but then the lizard ate him anyway.

We are what we are. I have been resisting my analytical side for quite awhile now... This is no fault of Steph or AMP or Spirituality, it was simply me resisting myself. My brain is always trying to break things down. But now, I am going to embrace that, but also I understand that sometimes, you can't break things down. Like religion, others' strong beliefs. Anyway, I feel I woke up a bit actually. This is refreshing. Three years ago I was all logic and little spirit. Then I became all spirit and repressed my logic. Now, I am embracing my logic and moving on with my life.

So recently I have jumped back into Dr. Paul's MindOS system, which again I am so intrigued by. It is truly a masterpiece of a model. This weekend, I met a fantastic girl (see my Field Report and my Lay Report which I will probably take down soon due to privacy) but there were many obstacle and social anxieties that got in the way. I had to invite their entire group out (anxiety), I had to stay cool when some drama came up (frustration), and I had to stay dominant in my frame (thick skin). If I were to be passive and just non-active at any point, the positive energy would have gone unstable, for sure. But I am so fucking glad I stuck with it, I feel I have a bunch of new friends, a new cool girl in my life, and more new confidence that I can handle complex social scenarios.

I wrote about this in my last post on Eastern Inner Game and Spiritual vs. Structured Inner Game, but I'll reiterate. For me, dealing with real time stress, anxiety, anger, Dr. Paul's MindOS is almost 100% perfect for me. He really lays it ALL out. It is fucking brilliant. Now, for building a thick skin and a strong personal boundary, I think spiritual type programs like Authentic Man Program are very aligned for me, personally. It was a combination of a few approaches to personal development that has me on this great high lately. I think checking our Dr. Paul's system can be extremely beneficial for anyone, especially if you like step-by-step material. AMP is great for anyone who wants to focus extremely intensely on building their strong frame and presence. I feel they go very hand in hand however, even though they are separate companies.

So imagine you had MindOS to solve all your stress issues, but your boundary was so weak that all different types of stress came into you all the time. That would suck huh? That was me about 2 or 3 years ago. So I spent the better part of 2 years patching those boundaries while not focusing on MindOS. So now the boundaries were patched, but I didn't really solve my stress issues (I feel I got a bit depressed at times too). Now, I am in a place where I actively use spirituality to solidify my boundary and keep strong inner beliefs while using MindOS for the real time stresses in my life. Wheew, I found my stability.