Last Friday I hung out with my new friend Ricky (that I met in my Men's Group Circle*) along with a few others. Like usual, we talked about Law of Attraction and how to manifest things into our lives. Without Ricky realizing the significance it had on me, he mentioned that affirmations are not about thoughts, but about beliefs.

Okay, so that seems obvious. Or, if not obvious it seems like some "whatever" point, but for me it was huge. I feel I definitely lost track of my thoughts and affirmations these last few weeks. They started to feel like a chore I had to say to myself once or twice a day, and after I said them I'd go on my merry way.

There are many phrases coined for this: Outcome Independence, No Fear of Loss, Wanting without Needing. I am certain everyone mentally knows what it means—"not being emotionally attached to an outcome" or "Just Be Cool" Simple, right? But what does it mean to be outcome independent?

Almost out of the blue, I met a friend who studies interaction and dating but from an angle of affirmations and inner game. That is, my friend really emphasized using affirmations as a way to manifest what you desire in your life (not for positive thinking, but like “wishing from a genie” almost). Also by coincidence, Dante Valentine (from Rock star Casanova) mentioned he uses it actively for his ridiculous successes.

I'm really loving this Okcupid site, it feels so natural and fun. Even though I am not quite using Davem /online pick up mentality on it, I did make my profile DaveM-esque (with help from my buddy Ulysses from Social Fundamentals). I highly recommend those programs. Anyway on to the journal...

Today was a rather interesting day in my journey. The last few days BradP and I exchanged emails regarding an interview he needs for his new program, which I believe is to be called "Metamorphosis Method" where he takes his students step by step through the learning process. Since I have been around the block, worked with Brad’s material and had some cool success with it all, he asked me to do an interview and I did. My only compensation was if I could call him if/when I am in a relationship crisis and get a phone consultation, oh and I got dinner after.

Inspired by a recent meditation, just 5 minutes ago, I decided to get the laptop and write. Daily I have been meditating and seeking to feel deep within my life force. That is what meditation means (to me), feeling my life force. Feeling my energy. Feeling my awe. Feeling my inspiration. Feeling my heart opening. Feeling my gut/solar plexus warming and simmering. Feeling my brain be spaced out---almost like on a drug but its all meditation. Also, feeling my emotions flow through my body freely. Feeling my sexual energy flow freely through my body.

This blog post goes back to the previous posts about speaking my truth and the girl I met in the gym. First post here, second post here.

Without going into all the gory details, I approached this
girl in the gym and wrote a journal entry about it called "Speaking my Truth in Set" where I basically let her know my values, let her know what I'm about, and I noticed we clicked very naturally.

Fast forward to a few days later, I tutored her and things went a bit sloppy. I didn't write about it on my blog, but I did make a post on my local lair and the Ideagasms forums and basically got some killer advice—I deviated off my path. That is, I stopped being my truth and tried to play the "game" with her.

My mental image of mediation, as far back as I can remember, was a half naked man sitting in the lotus posture with a super straight, stiff back and just sitting there. That is all. Whenever I'd try that type of mediation, it bored the fuck out of me. Like "omg.. im soooo bored" but it wasn't until recently I gained a new understanding of what mediation is. I can only speak my truth for what it currently is---I may change my "mind" later.

I went out today with a PUA I met named TP as he was supposed to meet up with a girl and needed a wing. Unfortunately she couldn't show up or something didn't work out and we just ended up sarging. Now, I haven't gone out in two weeks. School is top priority and I had midterms spread out during that time.

So I am a bit socially rusty and needed to warm up a bit. TP gets into some sets and I just sit back and watch a bit. Later on we venue change to Saddle Ranch and meet up with Dante again. Dante is chilling because his student already extracted and he was planning to extract more girls too. So we end up getting into some sets together.